I Simply Talked To God As If We Were Having A Conversation

I grew up in an Italian/Irish Catholic household. We went to church on Sunday, and were threatened with all the harm that would come our way if we didn't behave. It never sat right with me that the God I loved, and who loved me, would hurt me because I got mad at my sister and broke her doll.

If I became angry and uttered a swear word I heard from my parents, by the way, I was told I'd burn in Hell. This didn't sit well with my mind. How could a loving God care about a word? I began my own relationship with my Heavenly Father based on a mutual love and understanding. I didn't steal, but my anger at the hands of a controlling and dominating father did cause me to have less than peaceful thoughts.

I didn't lie because I had enough anger in me to stand up to whatever I thought or did. I could never grasp the idea that the God I loved and prayed to would condemn me for all eternity if I ate a baloney sandwich on Friday. Everyone else I knew said prayers they had memorized over the years. Some of my relatives prayed in Italian, and some said the prayers they learned in Church.

I simply talked to God as if He and I were having a conversation. I improvised for Him and I also felt His wisdom translated into an idea I would come up with that solved a problem or situation. I knew the answers hadn't been in my head before I started praying. Some spiritual entity was communicating with me, and I chose that entity to be God. So from an early age, I began my open relationship with God.

I could talk to Him when I was lying in bed, or on my computer, or driving in my car, or simply talk to Him in my head no matter where I was. I didn't usually pray for material things, except to keep my home. It was more prayers of providing safety for my kids and those I loved. I asked for good health. I had watched my mom pass from cancer, and I hope I never have to deal with that again.

Situations have happened that weren't expected or dreamt about. I went for a little ride to the dark side of the soul. It was frightening and oh so very much alone. Even if there were a hundred people around. The soul had been damaged, and it took time and dedication to repair it. There is always a residual amount of pain left behind, but that's the lesson learned. No pain, no gain.

The soul can create life and happiness. It can allow one to dream and hope and have faith. It can handle disappointment and despair. It knows how to shut down and it knows when to shine. It is who we are, our core, all of our characteristics piled into one center. One has to pull from that center and enjoy all that is offered us. Yes, things are going to go wrong, loved ones are going to die, sickness and disease may rear their ugly heads, but the soul can recover.

It will have recovered long before it convinces us to. Once we make the decision to be strong and get things done, our soul gives us the needed energy. We might try something we always wanted to do, but never did. Maybe we'll die our hair a total opposite color than we're used to. We could try a new food, or a comedy when we like drama, or popcorn with extra butter.

There is a light in the soul, and if we allow it to fuel our emotions, we can deal with life's ups and downs. It is not just the "pit of our stomachs." It is the battery that makes us run. If we allow it to illuminate us and give us strength, our lives will be more inviting. Hope can be with us until the last breathe we take. Faith can fuel every move we make.

Even when we are alone, we can check in with God and our angels and spirits who have gone on before us, and we can gain strength and guidance. Everything can be crumbling, and we may be out of control, but we still have our faith and our hope and our souls. Nothing lasts forever. Everything comes to an end. But we can live the time we have letting our souls talk to us, and make sure we do things right.

» left by Nancy Daniels (2 years 248 days ago.)

Well said, Sue. Your sentence, "It (the light in the soul)is the battery that makes us run."  So true. Your message gives hope and by the way, I have always talked to God, anywhere, anytime. I feel like I am communicating that way.

 

Thanks for your uplifting thoughts,

 

Nancy

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» left by Anonymous (2 years 200 days ago.)

hi nancy,

i'm so sorry it took this long to answer you-i din't get a notification from this site.

i, too, believe it is the light in the soul that governs us all.

thank you for reading and commenting,

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Ken McCreless from Event Horizon (2 years 247 days ago.)

Nicely done, Sue. Truly inspiring.

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» left by Anonymous (2 years 200 days ago.)

hi ken,

i'm so sorry i missed your comment.

this site is different than searchwarp, and i didn't receive a notification.

i just happened to remember to look throught the articles.

were you inspired to get on your bike and ride :)

my best to you,

sue

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